August 22, 2008 § Leave a comment
Every so often I like to go through the searches that bring people to my little corner of the web and see just what people were looking for when the stumble in here. Which inevitably yields a fine selection of “Questions people weren’t afraid to ask but probably didn’t find an answer for.” at least not here. So, being me, I will attempt to fill in the gaps.
How do you teach autistic children about the Sacrament of Communion? I think a lot depends on the level of the child. Some autistic individuals are more capable of abstract thinking than others. But that can be said about normal children at that age as well. Here is the real kicker, I honestly don’t think the Eucharist as it is, that being the blood and flesh of God, can actually be explained to anyone. It is something that the Holy Spirit testifies to, it is a matter of miraculousfaith, it isn’t something teachable by human means.
So, I would say if you are trying to teach the truthfulness of the Sacrament, don’t, just pray for the Spirit of God to teach that thing that defies all human understanding. Your example of faithful life probably teaches best. When you attend mass be sure that you are focusing on the sacrament, receive reverently, pray afterward in thanksgiving, talk about how much it means to you personally. You can use picture stories or social stories, you can use picture books, you can use words and lessons depending on the mental and verbal understanding of the communicant but for the them to understand the miracle that is the Eucharist is going to take and act of God (but it does for all of us, so trust Him in this).
If you are interested in reading more of my thoughts on autism and the sacrament of communion you can read them here. There I have some more nitty-gritty, how to make it actually work, sorts of advice.
Where do you find (inexpensive) white dishes? I really like white dishes. My new favorite place to shop is Ikea. They have white dishes in their catalogue. I think these are beautiful and plan on giving them a try very soon.
When does Advent 2008 start? This year the first Sunday of Advent is November 30. I am hopeful that I will have most of my Holiday preparations done before the beginning of Advent this year so that I can focus more clearly on the family, spiritual and faith aspects of the Advent and Christmas season without the clutter of culture, consumerism and materialism clogging up my life.
What is Catholic Homemaking? Homemaking when a Catholic chick is the one doing it? Ok, for another not quite so tonguein check answer: There are some things that mark Catholic homes. No, I am not talking about plastic statues of Mary or St Francis in the yard, though that can be part of it. What marks all that Catholic homes I am blessed to be surrounded with is a sense of the flow of the liturgical year. There is also a sense of being just a tad counter cultural. I know when I am looking to see if I am in the right place for an activity with my homeschool group all I need to lookfor is the club vans with the pro-life stickers on the bumpers. We are a group of mostly big families, five or six being average. It is the sort of group where, when the woman with seven kids announces that number eight is on the way everyone is honestly happy and no one makes snide comments or asks “how will the older kids feel about ANOTHER one?” because the older kids are all bragging about having another one to their friends. We tend to be somewhat kids centric, rather eccentric and just a touch touched in the head compared to the rest of the world.
Who is Carol Race? Carol is a mom in Bertha, Minn. Her son Adam is autistic and the parish of St Joeseph took a restraining order out to keep the family from bringing Adam to mass. In response to that Carol started a website called Project: Adam’s Pew. I like Carol. I have spoken to her several times and she is really a delightful person to talk to. I don’t completely agree with everything she has said or done in this situation, but I do like her and I understand that she is trying to be the best mom and advocate for her son that she can be. This is one of those cases where what is read in the media is just a tiny slice of the whole story. The Oregonian ran a piece on this on August 14th and the comments that the paper ran a few days later displayed the predicatable gross bigotry to the Catholic Church that these kinds of stories bring out. Bad, bad evil priest, poor innocent little boy being kicked out, WWJD and not so vague hopes that the priest rot in hell. If you want to read my previous thoughts on this story you can check them out on the sidebar under autism.
What are the lyrics to “Things you don’t say to your wife”? A lot of people seem to be looking for the lyrics to this funny song so I went ahead and transcribed them:
Hey honey have you gained some weight in your rear end?
The dress you wear reminds me of my old girl friend
And where’d you get those shoes I think they’re pretty lame?
Would you stop talking ’cause I’m trying to watch the game?
If you’re a man who wants to live
a long and happy life
these are the things you don’t say to your wife.
I planned a hunting trip next week on your birthday;
I didn’t ask you but I knew it’d be ok.
Go make some dinner while I watch this fishing show.
I taped it over our old wedding video.
If you’re a man who wants to live
a long and happy life
these are the things you don’t say to your wife.
Your cooking is ok but not like mother makes.
The diamond in the ring I bought you is a fake.
Your eyes look puffy, dear, are you feeling ill?
Happy anniversary I bought you a treadmill.
If you’re a man who wants to live
a long and happy life
these are the things you don’t say to your wife.
If you’re a man who doesn’t want
to get killed with a knife
these are the things you don’t say to your wife.
So, that is it for this round of answering those pressing questions that readers ask on their way to Simply Catholic.
July 2, 2008 § 6 Comments
My mother pointed out this letter to the editor in the Oregonian this weekend.
Misjudging a meltdown
My child was having a meltdown at a Target store one recent day. A man walked past us, shaking his head. He turned around, stared at us and rolled his eyes. He was probably thinking, “What kind of parent puts up with that terrible behavior?”
Let me tell you what kind of parent I am. I am the mother of a daughter with autism. Stores are a challenge for my daughter. She does her best to “behave” and I do my best to help her cope.
This man saw me attempting to calm a child who was crying and running away. He misjudged the situation.
I will not lock my child away to avoid getting dirty looks from people like him. He made my day more unpleasant, but he will never make me ashamed of my child. He should be ashamed. LISA S. COOK Southeast Portland
We all talked about it for a while. My mother’s take was interesting; on first glance she said that she really felt for the woman in the letter. She and my father have been with Rachel when she was having a meltdown. A particular situation happened in Baskin Robins one day when they had to take her out of the shop because she wanted cake instead of ice-cream and had a complete meltdown. But, then my mom said she started to feel sorry for the guy too. Yes, it is awful to have people stare at your child, to see that look of disdain as they turn away smug that they wouldn’t put up with that behavior. But the reality is they just don’t understand. They function in a world where autism is something you hear about on the news, or they know that a co-worker or neighbor’s child is autistic and that child doesn’t act-up so horribly. She felt the letter in the end had been written with the hope that the offending gentleman would read it and be embarrassed by it.
My husband and I are both sympathetic, but our response was more along the lines of “Poor Ms Cook, just wait until her daughter is a little older. Those rolled-eyed, ‘what a bad parent you must be’ looks are absolutely nothing compared to the looks you get when you have to physically drag your pre-teen out of a public place.” When you are packing an eleven year old girl out of the mall with her kicking and screaming you are far, far more concerned about what you are going to say to security when they stop you then you are the thoughts of random people staring. Of course we have to laugh looking back at how many times we have wanted to say something to the people who stare or maybe just melt into the floor because the situation has gotten embarrassing. So we really do feel for this lady and we hope that her daughter out-grows the tantrums. Until and unless that happens, really, what can you say – people are going to stare at some point you have to come to terms with it.
Assuming that Ms Cook’s assessment of the man’s thoughts is accurate the title is correct he misjudged a meltdown. But, in his defense it is pretty easy to do. Autistic kids don’t look different. In fact, unless you actually know what to look for (that far away look in the eyes, the repetitive movement, and sometimes very subtle little signs) there is no way to tell. How do you tell a tantruming four year old who is autistic from a tantruming four year old who isn’t? I don’t know and I have a good bit of experience with both autistic and non-autistic tantrums. So I guess personally I am willing, in principle, to cut the random stranger some slack.
Now I say in principle because I happen to have not always exactly lived up to my live and let live philosophy. Once, when Rachel was about five, we were in a Fred Meyer’s store (sort of like a cross between a Safeway and a Target for those not in the Northwest) and Rachel had a complete meltdown over this ugly, yet expensive, metal Halloween pumpkin decoration that I was not going to buy. She cried and fell on the floor and was just having an all out tantrum of the first degree. I was tired, frustrated, embarrassed and this woman with her teenage daughter walked by. “I never let you act like that when you were that age!” she said in sotto voce designed for me to hear yet giving her the illusion that she was trying to be discrete. I let her have it. As in I LET . HER . HAVE . IT. I turned on her with murder in my eyes and in as controlled and flat and furious a voice as I could manage I said something like, “Oh, yeah lady, well my kid is autistic and you have no bloody idea what you are talking about, I am doing the best I can. If you would like to get over here and show me how to parent my child better then I do be my guest! Other wise don’t be such a jackass.” Not my finest moment, I will admit. I think I scared the woman half to death, she was about a foot shorter than me, a good ten to fifteen years older and not in anywhere near the physical condition I was in. I probably looked like I was ten seconds or less from beating someone to a bloody pulp and she was the nearest, handy person. She looked very upset and shocked and stammered, “Oh no, no, I’m really sorry, you are doing really great – really!”
That is one of those moments in my life that I really am conflicted about. On one hand I am sort of proud. I said it and at the time I meant it. I put the woman in her place, she was being rude and I think I had a valid point. On the other hand I am also rather shamed by it. I was embarrassed, stressed, upset and emotionally unhinged at the time – none of that had anything to do with her, it had to do with the situation and it was wrong to take all that out on her the way I did over her ignorant, self congratulatory statement. I find it amusing that I can feel both emotions simultaneously. It was definitely a moment where I spoke first and thought second, but sometimes ‘mommy rage’ charges ahead even against our better natures.
July 1, 2008 § 10 Comments
Adam Race, an autistic teenager, will not be allowed to attend mass at The Parish of St. Joseph In Bertha, Minn. The judge ruled that Adam’s behaviors constituted harassment towards the parish.
You can read the news articles here. I am not surprised by the ruling, but it is sad that it got to this point.
June 25, 2008 § Leave a comment
Carol Race had a hearing to determine if the pairsh of The Parish of St. Joseph In Bertha, Minn was justified in obtaining a restraining order aginst her for bring her son, Adam, who is 13 and autistic to mass.
You can read more about this story and the other items I have written on autism here.
June 15, 2008 § 1 Comment
In Mass today I had one of those “God Strikes” moments; it was one of those times where something really normal happens and it completely blows me away because there is some small miracle happening. Rachel turned to me right as the consecration was beginning and said very clearly and signed “thank you”. It was really significant because we almost didn’t go to mass this morning. We had a special Father’s Day breakfast and we were running a little late, Christopher couldn’t find his belt, Josh couldn’t find his shoes, Rachel was really on the edge of being too excited and I had to fill up the car with gas. We almost didn’t make it out the door. I am so glad we did.
Rachel just loves mass. She loves Communion. I know she was so happy to go, but her being able to communicate that so clearly was really a little miracle. I love those little mini-miracles.
June 13, 2008 § 1 Comment
This post is really the third of a series I have written about what we went through in placing our autistic daughter, Rachel, in a residential setting. There first two posts in this series are: A Note From the Edge of the World and Life like a String Pulled Taunt. You can read all that I have written on autism here.
It was a new school year and a new school. Rachel was starting middle school. She was a sixth grader. But the transition, as most transitions with Rachel, was rocky. Her classroom was in a big middle school, quite different from the small neighborhood elementary school. Her teachers were having difficulties with her acting out in class. By the beginning of November it was apparent that this particular placement wouldn’t work for her. We switched to a different program, one designed for children and teens with developmental disabilities coupled with behavioral issues.
We had settled Rachel into her new class. She was having a little bit of a hard time, but this transition was a bit easier. Her behaviors were still highly volatile. If she was very happy she would act out, if she was upset she would act out, just about anything. She was heading into full blown puberty. All the physical changes were starting to take place and the hormones were flowing. The mood swings, the temperament changes were there just like they would be for any child her age, but with Rachel being unable to express herself like a normal girl the frustration was multiplied.
At home we knew that it was only a matter of time before something happened. More and more I was answering questions from my other children about why Rachel was mean, why she was hurtful, why it was ok for her to hit or pinch or kick but not ok for anyone else. Driving Rachel anywhere alone was risky. She had learned that she could get a big reaction by attacking the driver. She had also started hurting herself on occasion. One afternoon in early November she became very agitated in the car and began banging her head back into the seat she managed to pop her jaw. She instantly stopped her tantrum and began crying. When we got home I took her to the pediatrician who looked her over and said that she would be fine, just a little sore. But we were all concerned.
Life was never absolutely normal for us, but it wasn’t all a trip through the third level of hell either. Days would pass where nothing in particular happened. Rachel was more verbal than she had ever been before. She began to show a real interest in words and would have me sit and write words out for her, “cat”, “house” and she love having the names of the family on her lists. “Joshua”, “Hannah”, she liked to have her nails polished and watch TV with Ashley. She loved to have her hair washed and brushed. We were all excited with baby Sarah on the way. The children were looking forward to Christmas.
But, as we knew would eventually happen Rachel crossed the line too far. She was upset in the kitchen, ran into the living room and before I could catch up with her she grabbed Christopher and bit him in the upper arm. It was bad, it hadn’t broken the skin, but that was more luck than anything, it left a huge bruise. We took Christopher to our doctor and she looked at me and said “If this had been you or Kyle I would be on the phone to child protective services.” It was a nightmare. We had no option left; we had to make the call.
We called our social worker Kim, we told her that we were going to have to go for a crisis placement. Now you might remember that almost a year before we were told that crisis placement meant no choice, 24 hours or less and the child was out of the home with other frightening possibilities on top of that. But the second we actually made the call the scenario was different. I am not sure what happened. The state didn’t place Rachel in a crisis placement, but they did start looking for a out-of-home placement for her. We were told it could take a few days or a few months but probably about three weeks. It took almost two months to find a placement that would work.
The options broke down into two main categories: foster-care or a residential group home. We were very nervous about the foster home option. One of the things we hoped for Rachel was more structure than a normal home could naturally provide and her elopement issues and unpredictability worried us in a home setting. Finally Kim called very excited. A place had opened up in a group home for teens, in Portland, they would be able to meet her needs, and Rachel would be close to home. It looked like a great fit.
We visited the home, talked to the staff and the managing company staff, filled out more and more paper work. Everything worked out. The week after Sarah was born Rachel moved in to her house. It is a tidy ranch in a good neighborhood; the back yard is surrounded by a tall cedar fence and Rachel has her own room. It is home to five teens when Rachel moved in she was the youngest, and one of two girls. Her bedroom was painted pink, with Princess Stickers on the walls. We had several meetings where plans were made for Rachel’s care and happiness. The things she liked and the things she didn’t were taken into consideration. Each week her activates are planned, she can go bowling, shopping, even horseback riding. Support staff comes with her to enable her to manage these things.
At home we have found that not being solely responsible for Rachel twenty-four hours a day seven days a week, week in and week out had allowed us to be more focused on Rachel when she is home. We aren’t’ constantly worn down. We have been able to come out of the “bunker” mentality and live. But it has been a slow process. Dr Turner told us that it would take at least a year for us to decompress as a family. He said at first we wouldn’t change how we lived because those habits that we had adopted to deal with Rachel were pretty entrenched, then we would feel some amount of guilt. We wouldn’t do things as a family and have fun because it would feel wrong not to have Rachel with us even though those things would have been unmanageable with her, like camping or going on vacation. Finally we would adjust to it and find balance.
We also found that we have gone through phases of adjustment with seeing Rachel. At first we were there frequently and brought her home almost every weekend. For a while it seemed like we didn’t see her enough. But now we have found a balance. We try to make sure she is home every other weekend. At first the transitions on the weekend were very hard but now things are easier. Rachel loves coming home, but is happy to go back to her house. The placement has been good for Rachel, good for the other children. It isn’t perfect. There have been small issues with the group home staff from time to time. For a while a big thing was Rachel’s hair, which is naturally full and curly. Rachel has always loved having it brushed and washed, but the house staff would have a horrible time with it and would let it go and it would get tangled horribly. But this issue was addressed and worked out.
Emotionally it was a difficult adjustment. I cried when I took the locks off the kitchen cupboard, but being able to leave the doors open for the first time in the summer was like a dream come true. Christopher had a very difficult time when Rachel first left. He blamed himself. The younger children were in ways glad to see her go, but now they look forward to Rachey days. Rachel had a bit of a hard time the first few weeks. She ran away from the house or staff a few times, but she soon adjusted. I look at it almost like she is at boarding school. We always knew that Rachel would one day be in a group home setting. We hoped that we would be able to place her as a late teen or early twenty. My first husband, Rachel’s father, worked in a group home for adults with developmental disabilities. He had seen how difficult it was for those adults who came in late, when their parents died or were no longer able to care for them. They had such a difficult time compared to those who came in as young adults. We didn’t want to stifle Rachel. We wanted her to be able to leave our home and become as independent an adult as possible. She deserves her own life, her own space and things and friends. We just didn’t expect to have to be doing that at 12 or 13.
Placing Rachel in residential care was the single hardest thing we have ever done, but it has turned out to be one of the best decisions we have ever made
June 12, 2008 § 1 Comment
You can read the final installment of this series here: The rest of the story.
It was one of those crazy afternoons. Rachel wanted a something from the kitchen not finding it she started to get upset. I told her to go to her room, because that is her “safe place” where she could unwind by herself. It was never a problem for Rachel to go to her room, but she was already agitated. There is a particular little set of notes that Rachel hoots when she is winding up to have a meltdown. “Dut da dut da da” high and stressed little notes letting everyone know that she is not able to calm herself down. Then she turned and ran out of the room, through the living room, down the hall and slammed her door. Five year old Hannah appeared from behind the big, blue chair in the living room with two year old Josh right behind her. “Mommy we hid, when Rachel was getting mad I got Josh and we hid.” What could I say? “Good job”, I think was what came out of my mouth as I sat down and for the millionth time wondered what we were going to do.
A year before I had sat down and poured out my heart to my laptop. I was at the end of my rope, I knew I had to do something, but I was unsure what to do. I had two options and neither were options I wanted to pursue. After writing that article about a month passed before things got worse. After dropping Ashley and Christopher off at school I was driving back to the house to wait for Rachel’s bus. Rachel was agitated. I didn’t know what had set her off, but she was really upset. We were stopped at a light and I was looking out the passenger window when she kicked at me. I was able to move and she caught me in the shoulder, but if I had been looking the other way or driving at the time she would have hit me in the head. If we had been on the freeway… The “what ifs” overwhelmed me.
By the time we got home and Rachel’s bus came to take her to school I was shaking. I sat down on the couch and started crying. After a while I thought I had myself together and started making calls. One agency would refer me to another. Everyone I spoke to was kind; they listened to me break down over and over while I tired explain that we couldn’t do this anymore. I couldn’t manage Rachel’s behaviors. But the only thing they could offer was to refer me to someone else.
Bouncing from one group to another I learned a lot. Rachel was too young to be in the adult mental health system. We had too much money for some state programs but not enough to pay for private programs and our insurance wouldn’t cover anything for autism. There were programs for children with mental retardation but Rachel didn’t qualify. Programs for autistic teens, but not that would be able to provide services to someone with behaviors as severe as Rachel’s. There just weren’t services out there that I could find that met our needs. By the end of the day I had called a dozen agencies and support groups and I had two appointments. One appointment was with ARC the other with the Oregon Disability Determination Services.
When Kyle got home we talked. I told him what I had done and what had led up to it that particular day. I can’t imagine anyone more supportive than my husband. Autism can be stressful to the whole family, not to mention the marriage. But Kyle has always been steady and solid. He arranged to come with me to the meeting with DDS. Social services make me nervous. My personal experience with them and the stories I have read and heard from friends made me feel like talking to the state was walking into a dragon’s den. Fortunately Kyle would be there with me.
For the appointment with ARC I was on my own. It was with a woman named Wendy. On Thursday, February 24th I drove downtown for my appointment. I waiting in the tiny waiting room for a little while and finally someone came out to explain that Wendy was tied up with another client across town. I went to the car with a sick feeling as though I would never find anyone who could help. I was just sitting there in the car already exhausted and in the middle of a minor breakdown when Wendy called and asked if I wanted to reschedule or wait. I had nothing else to do so I waited. She came back and we talked, but the best they could offer was respite care. We have respite care, my parents would watch Rachel from time to time, but this was beyond that. We needed something more structured for Rachel than we could provide Rachel needed it. My other children needed a life where they weren’t at risk from Rachel’s behaviors. All this hung together. Something had to change on a somewhat perminate basis. But that is beyond ARC’s services. Besides, ARC is mostly for people with mental retardation anyhow, I really needed to talk to the State Department of Human Services. Bounced again.
Oregon Disability Determination Services is part of the State Department of Human Services. On March first we met with Sheryl. At that time residential placements were based on need, basically to get Rachel placed at all required a crisis placement. We sat down and filled out a small mountain of paper work to see if Rachel qualified. We would be assigned a case worked. We had had a case worker through DDS years before. She had been helpful when we were first coordinating Rachel’s educational services, but since we had good family support we didn’t need them. So we were shelved. Now we needed them and had to get back into the system.
That was when things started to get worrisome. To place Rachel might take years going through the regular channels. The only possible way to get her placed quickly was a crisis placement. We were told if we called in a crisis they would find an “immediate” placement. This would mean Rachel would be out of the home in 24 hours. We wouldn’t have any say in the initial placement, and then they would find a permanent placement where we would have some say over the placement itself.
We started hearing a lot of conflicting information. We were cautioned that a “full blown” crisis intervention placement might involved DHS Child Protection Services and if a placement for Rachel couldn’t immediately be found that the CPS might place our other children instead, the logic being that if Rachel was a danger to them it would be easier to move them to safety than to find a suitable placement for Rachel. We were also told the placement might be far away. If the first available appropriate placement was in Le Grande that is where she would be and there wouldn’t be much we could do about it.
With all this uncertainty hanging over our heads we couldn’t do it. We were quickly approved and assigned a case worker, her name was Kim. She turned out to be fantastic. Summer was coming and she helped arrange for Rachel to spend a week at camp. Things seemed to be settling down a little, I tucked the business cards I had collected into my day-runner and we waited. While the situation was very difficult at times it was also better than risking all the unknowns. We hoped and prayed that Rachel would get better and we hung on as long as we could
June 10, 2008 § 2 Comments
Every once in a while I like to go through the search terms people use to find this site to see what questions are being asked to lead people here. Funny enough sometimes I know that they won’t find the answer they are looking for in what I have written, even more humorous is when I actually know the answers anyhow. Here are some of the latest.
What is a child receiving communion called? Anyone who is entitled to receive communion can be called a communicant. For first communion it would be “first communicant”.
Where can I learn the catholic rosary? Not here, but The Rosary Center or Catholic Online both have the prayers. And you can use the same Rosary beads for a chaplet as well. My favorite is the Divine Mercy Chaplet.
What is the most important moment in my life? You are in it. Right now is the most important moment in your life. It is the only moment you have any control over. All choices are made in the now. All plans, all dreams depend on how we live the little moments of our lives. Who and what you are living this moment for makes all the difference.
What does it mean to be living a Catholic life? For me it means you are working on forming yourself, your conscience, your habits and practices in the image God wants for you, that you are striving to be like Him within the structure, the tradition and the support of Catholic teaching. In short following the precepts of the Church.
As always the Catechism of the Church has a better answer than I could ever hope to form:
2041 The precepts of the Church are set in the context of a moral life bound to and nourished by liturgical life. The obligatory character of these positive laws decreed by the pastoral authorities is meant to guarantee to the faithful the very necessary minimum in the spirit of prayer and moral effort, in the growth in love of God and neighbor:2042 The first precept (“You shall attend Mass on Sundays and holy days of obligation and rest from servile labor.”) requires the faithful to sanctify the day commemorating the Resurrection of the Lord as well as the principal liturgical feasts honoring the Mysteries of the Lord, the Blessed Virgin Mary and the saints; in the first place, by participating in the Eucharistic Celebration, in which the Christian community is gathered, and by resting from those works and activities which could impede such a sanctification of these days.82The second precept (“You shall confess your sins at least once a year.”) ensures preparation for the Eucharist by the reception of the sacrament of reconciliation, which continues Baptism’s work of conversion and forgiveness.83
The third precept (“You shall receive the sacrament of the Eucharist at least during the Easter season”) guarantees as a minimum the reception of the Lord’s Body and Blood in connection with the Paschal feasts, the origin and center of the Christian liturgy.84
2043 The fourth precept (“You shall observe the days of fasting and abstinence established by the Church”) ensures the times of ascesis and penance which prepare us for the liturgical feasts and help us acquire mastery over our instincts and freedom of heart.NT1The fifth precept (“You shall help to provide for the needs of the Church”) means that the faithful are obliged to assist with the material needs of the Church, each according to his own ability.NT2
III. MORAL LIFE AND MISSIONARY WITNESS
2044 The fidelity of the baptized is a primordial condition for the proclamation of the Gospel and for the Church’s mission in the world. In order that the message of salvation can show the power of its truth and radiance before men, it must be authenticated by the witness of the life of Christians. “The witness of a Christian life and good works done in a supernatural spirit have great power to draw men to the faith and to God.”88
2045 Because they are members of the Body whose Head is Christ,89 Christians contribute to building up the Church by the constancy of their convictions and their moral lives. The Church increases, grows, and develops through the holiness of her faithful, until “we all attain to the unity of the faith and of the knowledge of the Son of God, to mature manhood, to the measure of the stature of the fullness of Christ.”90
2046 By living with the mind of Christ, Christians hasten the coming of the Reign of God, “a kingdom of justice, love, and peace.”91 They do not, for all that, abandon their earthly tasks; faithful to their master, they fulfill them with uprightness, patience, and love.
How do I prepare my autistic son for 1st Communion? A lot of that will depend on where on the autism spectrum your son is. I have written about First Communion and autism here. In the US the most important document on the topic is: Guidelines for the Celebration of the Sacraments with Persons with Disabilities. Most pastors I have known have been very open to working with families dealing with disability issues. There are some out there who aren’t and that is very sad but we are all human and struggle with our own fears, discomforts and prejudices and I would hope that we always keep in mind the Proverb: A mild answer calms wrath, but a harsh word stirs up anger.
As far as practical advice goes the two most helpful things in general I can say are: Practice with a few unconsecrated breads and wine before the actual sacrament so you can see if there are any taste or texture issues that might cause problems, and social stories are very helpful. Your child’s school probably has software to help create one or you can find images online and put one together yourself. One of these days I might get around to putting mine online.
Being a good wife means what? You might be looking for the “1950’s home economic textbook’s 10 step guide to being a good wife” here is it at snopes or you might want Aristotle’s work “On a good wife“. You might be looking for the Proverb 31 description or Titus 2 and in the end, even thoug one is a ‘joke’ they all have similar themes. If you were to condense them all down you get something like this:
A good wife is woman of worth in her own right. She is someone who is thoughtful, just, kind, modest, graceful, respectable, honorable and faithful. She takes good care of her home and household. She is wise with her family’s assets. She avoids any scandal. She takes excellent care of her children and her family and shows consideration and charity to her community, the poor and the needy. She loves her husband, showing him respect, support, devotion and affection. Above all she serves God.
I have written a little more on the topic of being a Good Wife here.
June 7, 2008 § 1 Comment
I have typed that into google many times over the past five years. I was always hopeful. It always turned out somewhat dissappointing. I did it again today. Lot’s of information from people living on the spectrum. Those who are obviously high functioning enough to use a computer and type their thoughts and feelings in a coherant manner. Some of what they say is insightful a great deal of it has about as much to do with my daughter Rachel as if they were talking about a completely normal teen. My concerns for Rachel aren’t how to help her be cool, or how should we handle dating but things like what is the process for placing her in an assisted living situation, how do I avoid getting CPS involved in my family’s life if she hurts her sibling — should I even worry about that — could CPS actually help or are they clueless when it comes to special needs?
Searching again by adding aggression into the search box. I hoped to up the relevance. It leaves me wondering again. Am I alone out here? I know I am not, I know there are other families dealing with these issues. Why is it so very difficult to find support?
June 6, 2008 § 11 Comments
When Kyle comes home we spend a few minutes together sharing our days with each other. Yesterday he met a co-worker with a child who is on the autism spectrum. Somehow this came up and they had the chance to talk. Her son is getting older, just approaching puberty and is becoming violent at times with her. He has always had melt-downs, the rare and occasional fit. But as he gets larger and stronger it has become more and more an issue. Her son had pushed her down the stairs breaking her arm.
I think I am ready to talk about this. I think I am ready to say all this, here on this blog, here in semi-anonymity: My daughter is severely autistic and in residential care. My daughter can be violent, she can hurt people, she has hurt me, her dad, her siblings and her care workers. We did the best we could and we still do. You can demonise me if you like, you can say I didn’t try hard enough or do the right things. I know what we went through. I know that we tried everything we could and in the end made the best choice possible. And I know I am not alone, but for a long time I felt like it.
A friend of mine told me about having taken her autistic son to a Dr appointment. While waiting her son began to display minor characteristic behaviors, humming and hooting, repetitive rocking movements. An old woman in the waiting room asked “Oh, you have a disabled one here?”. My friend was at first offended, “yes, yes I do.” she said. The woman leaned over and whispered, “It’s ok dear, I have one too.” The old woman’s son was in his fifties, she would use cloth restraints to tie him to the bed when she left home because if she didn’t he would become stressed and destroy the house.
It is almost like being part of some underground. There are parents of normal kids. They don’t have the foggiest idea what it can be like. There are the parents of autistic kids who don’t exhibit violent behaviors that are in ways worse. Some are sure if you were doing what they are doing then your child wouldn’t have those behaviors and they have no problem telling you that you need to do this or that. Ironically I know that some of those same parents flip when the parent of a normal child makes suggestions about how they should change their parenting and their autistic child will be better. They mean well. I know they do. I know a good many of them would give support and help if they knew how. But they don’t know what to say. Our lives are so far beyond the norm, even for autism.
Other parents of autistic kids can see it coming and they are terrified by it. They know they can’t control their five-year-old’s meltdowns, they hope their child will outgrow them, they have no idea what to do if that doesn’t happen. We parents of autistic children with aggression issues usually don’t talk much. When we find each other, we start sharing stories in hushed voices, at some point realising that the other understands. It is such a relief. Someone who won’t condemn you , someone who knows, who has the been there and understands the pain.
Three years ago I would have given ANYTHING to be able to get online and find one person who understood what we were going through. Anything. We were totally alone. When I first wrote about Rachel on this blog I started seeing searches coming in about autism. The most heartbreaking were the ones I had typed in myself a couple years before: “Autism and aggression”, “Teen agression or violence + autism”, “Residential placement for autistic teens”, “Support autistic teens”, “I have failed my autistic child”. It was like reading Post-Secert or something. Pharses that spoke of someone out there trying to find something, some help, some hope. And to end up here where there was one post about my austic daughter? That seemed so desperate.
I am going to write more on this tomorrow. But for today I just want to let any parent with an autistic child with severe behavior issues stumbling in here to know, you aren’t alone. I have been there too, I still am in ways. I know what it is like to read over an autism forum and close the window because you know that no one will understand. There are things you can do but it isn’t easy. Residential placement can be a very good thing not just for you and your family but also for your autistic child. But it can be emotionally difficult to get to that point and even more difficult to get what you need from the system. But there is hope. It won’t be perfect, it won’t even be normal… but you aren’t alone. There are others of us out here with quiet voices.